Wishing I had more Energy

I am doing quick update again.  I did not get the specific job I was applying for, the manager said he would keep my application on file and let me know if there is another opening.  After all the thinking & listing I did, before I applied for the job, I can't go back to the way things were.  I want to make the change, back to direct patient care.  Luckily, I still have a job, so no one is starving here :0)  If I had any doubt, I only have to take my personal test.  Ask myself, "If I knew for sure that I would die in 6 months, what would I do different?"  The answer is:  I would put this house on the market, buy whatever RV I could afford, and hit the road.   I can't do that for now, because I don't know for sure.  It does tell me I need to make changes as soon as possible.  Inertia is a hard thing to overcome.  It's so much easier, in the short run, to just keep the status quo.  Change takes cojones and energy.  I used to have cojones somewhere.  I'm working on both :0)  Hope all is well out there.  Take care and be gentle with each other.