I Scared the Dogs

So I've been dieting.  I've allowed myself one meal per week to eat junk food.  I've been sticking to it well.  This week I went out to dinner with a friend and had some chicken friend steak at Texas Roadhouse YUMM.  So that was my junk food dinner, on Thursday.  Dinner was soo good, I ordered one to go and ate it for lunch the next day (yikes).  So that was a second junk food meal, on Friday.  So, this is Sunday.  I was DYING for a McDonald's hamburger and fries.  Thinking about it all day.  It would come up..  I would turn my thoughts to something else...  It would pop into my brain again.  And so on.   So work is finished and the craving is really bad.  I'm trying to talk myself into hot tea.  There is some broccoli/chicken/rice left over from lunch.  Lot's of options.  I should eat and, then I won't be hungry and the craving will go away.  Right? RIGHT. 

Now keep in mind that I spend a good part of my work day listening to excuses, rationalizations, and down right lies.  All kinds of things people will say so they can talk themselves out of doing what they already know they need to do.  I'm pretty conscious about rationalizations and, I don't use them.  If I want to do something, I do it.  I take responsibility for my choices and I do it.  No excuses.  People that use rationalizations and silly excuses are often the butt of my sarcasm when I'm not being paid to be nice. 

So I'm cleaning up after work and still fighting with my Junk food craving in the back of my brain (for gosh sakes this has been going on ALL afternoon).  It's 7:40 now and I'm looking in the refrig.  What goes through my brain?  "that dinner out wasn't all THAT bad, it was just meat and potatos and I even had green stuff" (note: the 'green stuff' was a handful of ceasar salad and the meat was deep FRIED)

Stopped me dead in my tracks!!  I said out loud to my empty house of fish & dogs.  WHAT?  You did NOT just think that!!  And I repeated the whole sentence, out loud, adding my own special sarcastic twist I would use when talking to someone else.  I couldn't help but laugh, I just started laughing.  I mean like HEE Hawing. 

The dogs actually left the room.  I'm so embarrassed. 

I made one last attempt to talk my brain out of it.  I thought I could make a yummy, healthy turkey meat loaf that I like.  My brain's brilliant response...  "yeah, but that would take so long to make that you would be eating < 2 hours before you go to sleep and that's not good" 

I didn't even repeat this one out loud.  I just laughed all the way out the door to my truck :0)

Needless to say I got my burger & fries.  The dogs recovered.  I haven't quite recovered my dignity yet :0)   Just shaking my head at the amazing power of the human brain.